Recovering From Crisis Mode: Learning to Embrace Rest and Joy After Years of Survival
Kelsea Wulff on April 2, 2025 at 7:07 AM

There’s a moment – maybe in the middle of the night, maybe in the grocery store checkout line – when the realization lands: the crisis has passed. The emergency that defined days, months, and maybe even years is over. And yet, the body doesn’t quite believe it. Recovering from crisis mode isn’t as simple as flipping a switch. The habits of survival – constant vigilance, tight shoulders, a mind always scanning for the next catastrophe – don’t just dissolve overnight. They linger, keeping the nervous system wired for chaos long after the need for it has disappeared.
The First Step: Identify the Cause of Your Anxiety
For some, this prolonged state of alertness came from childhood instability. For others, it was a financial strain, illness, or a period of overwhelming responsibility. Some spent years battling a substance use disorder, where each day was a fight to stay afloat. Whatever the cause, the result is the same: a brain conditioned to expect disaster, a body that doesn’t trust peace. And when rest does come knocking, it feels like an unfamiliar guest – suspicious, intrusive, hard to welcome in.
The Uneasy Truce With Stillness
The first attempts at rest often feel strange, even uncomfortable. Sitting still can trigger an itch to check emails, reorganize a closet, or find a new problem to solve. The absence of stress doesn’t always register as relief; sometimes, it feels like emptiness. The mind, having spent so long in emergency mode, assumes that stillness means something must be wrong.
Joy, too, can feel suspicious. Learning to be kind to yourself can be a lot of work. Laughter might be edged with guilt. A quiet weekend might stir an urge to create new obligations. The body, trained for tension, doesn’t trust ease. And this is where patience comes in. It takes effort to teach the body that rest is safe. That joy is not a betrayal of all the struggle that came before that a quiet morning with nothing urgent to do is not a problem to be solved but a gift to be received.
Recognize all Forms of Discomfort
The discomfort of rest isn’t just mental – it’s physical, too. Muscles used to bracing for impact don’t know how to soften. The chest, accustomed to shallow breathing, resists expansion. Even sleep, when it finally comes, can feel more like a truce than true restoration. The body, in its wisdom, holds onto what it knows, and for a long time, it knew survival. Teaching it something new – teaching it ease – requires repetition, reassurance, and the willingness to sit with the strangeness of safety until it no longer feels foreign.
Learning to Unclench
At some point, it becomes clear that the grip on survival needs to loosen. Maybe it starts with the realization that exhaustion is not, in fact, a badge of honor. Or maybe it comes with a quiet, steady understanding: the life built on pure adrenaline cannot last. Whether is stress caused by getting rid of bad habits, or anxiety caused by outside factors, it's important to deal with the absence of it in the right way.
This is where small experiments in softness begin. Maybe the first step is allowing a full breath, deep and unhurried. If you need to sit in silence for five minutes, try that and see what happens. Maybe it’s something as simple as drinking a glass of water with both hands, feeling its cool weight, and letting the moment be enough. It’s easy to scoff at this – what does a deep breath really change? But the body speaks its own language. A breath is a signal. A message that says: the danger has passed. You are allowed to be here.
The Strange, Tender Work of Joy
For many, joy is the harder lesson. Not because it is unwelcome, but because it feels undeserved. After years of struggle, the idea of happiness can seem indulgent, even selfish, and the fears of old habits will hinder you every step of the way. But joy is not a luxury. It’s part of the repair process. Joy is what fills in the gaps left by hardship. It’s what reminds the nervous system that life is more than endurance. And like any skill, it requires practice.
At first, it might feel forced. A walk in the park might bring more anxiety than pleasure. A meal with friends might be spent half-listening and half-waiting for bad news. This is normal. The body, trained to expect the worst, needs time to recalibrate. One of the most important lessons here is simple: treat yourself with compassion. The instincts built in survival mode won’t vanish overnight. If joy feels difficult, that’s not failure. It’s a sign that the nervous system is still learning, still adjusting, and still trying to understand that it no longer has to be on high alert.
The Quiet Power of Rest
Rest, real rest, is more than just sleep. It’s an unhurried conversation. A slow morning with coffee that doesn’t have to be gulped down between obligations. It’s the ability to sit without the nagging pull of unfinished work. And, just like joy, it takes practice. At first, rest might feel like laziness. The mind, conditioned for productivity, will try to argue: shouldn't something be getting done? Shouldn't time be spent more efficiently?
But rest is not wasted time. Rest is repair. It is what allows a person to step out of survival mode and into something better. Without it, recovering from crisis mode isn’t easy, as the past continues to dictate the present. With it, there is space to grow, to soften, to live in a way that is not just about getting through the day, but actually experiencing it.
Rebuilding Trust in Life
Recovering from crisis mode means learning to trust again – not just other people, but life itself. It means believing, however hesitantly, that good things can happen without a disaster lurking behind them. That happiness is not a setup for future disappointment. That ease is not a trick. For some, this comes naturally. For others, it is a slow, cautious process. There might be setbacks. The body, once convinced that danger was always near, starts to believe in safety. The mind, once braced for the worst, starts to expect something different. And somewhere in the middle of all this – between the first hesitant attempts at rest and the full embrace of joy – there is a moment of realization: life is not an emergency anymore. It is something else now. Something softer, something fuller, something worth living.
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